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Always

Tuesday, July 29th, 2008

Here I stand
With a hope that grace instills in me
I surrender everything I am to You

Live in me
Let my life reflect You constantly
As I open up my heart
As I offer up my soul
I lay my dreams in Your hands

This is what I know
That You are God of all
And I will trust you always, always

Never walk alone
Resting in the hope
That You will hold me always, always

I open up my heart
Offer up my soul

~Equippers Church ‘Revolution’

I love this song so much. Its been ministering to me all weekend.

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Hong Kong Journeys – Part One

Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008

Hong Kong is such an interesting place. I’ve often called it the ‘New York’ of asia, its a melting pot of different cultures, races and communities. The rich of the rich and the poor of the poor all living together in a pool of almost 8 million people in an area the size of Perth City.

Different areas of the city reflect different mindsets and cultural norms. From the freshly waxed shiny marble floors, french patisseries and couture fashion galleries of Times Square to the soft wafts of incense circulating the red and gold Buddhist temples of Wong Tai Sin, it is definitely unlike any place I have yet to know.

The past few days I’ve been absorbing the energy of the bright lights, crowds and the HK chinese culture. Its been great having friends here that have been able to take me around to eat (a major past time of local HK’ers) and explain to me the ins and outs about getting myself set up here as a long term resident. Thats such a crazy thought. I still can’t believe I am here and that this place will be my home now. That this busy lifestyle and culture is now my life. It makes me realise that taking time to rest is going to be more of a conscious decision now.

I don’t want to be here in the mindset that I am apart from this. A ‘me versus them’ mentality. I want to really be a part of what’s going on over here, involved in the culture and fully engaged in everything that I am doing. I don’t want to have regrets about being here, and in full honesty I don’t, because here is what I truly believe is where God wants me to be. No matter how much of a fish out of water I am feeling right now.

Knowing the fact that God has me out here for a reason makes it quite exciting. It feels like I am living on the edge, not quite sure about what’s going to happen but knowing what ever does happen, is meant to be.

I caught up with my friend Dave tonight. Its funny how you can have friendships that pick up right where they left off. Dave is definitely one of those friends for me, even after seeing him again at christmas for the first time in something like 4-5 years, its like we had never stopped talking. Dave is an accountant, and accountants are good friends to have. Especially when you are not familiar with the currency or the expenditure of the country. So he sat down with me tonight and helped me do my budget and explained a few ‘need to knows’ about Hong Kong to me.

Some surprising things he said was that if you want to get a good deal in a shop or get good customer service you need to speak english. Don’t speak cantonese. He said he never speaks cantonese with shop attendants, unless they are small local stores. I got a mobile plan today and he reckons I got ripped off because I tried to speak cantonese with the shop assistant, and that if I had spoken in english I proberly would of gotten a better deal. I’m not sure how that works but apparently it works. We tried his theory out in one of the shops and surely enough the shop assistant was alot more polite and courteous. Bizarre.

Another interesting thing was that whilst doing my budget I realised exactly how low the tax is in HK. I worked it out I was paying less than 1% tax on my income, which I think is absolutely crazy. Less than 1% tax?! Apparently the maximum tax you will pay on your income in HK is 15% which is really good considering I was paying about 25-30% out of my salary in Australia. That proberly explains why so many people from overseas come and stay in HK; high expatriate incomes, low taxes, and low cost of living makes for a nice comfortable life.
I am moving into my apartment on Thursday and I can’t hardly wait. Living in my grandmas tiny apartment is proving challenging. It feels claustrophobic and I hate the feeling of living out of a suitcase. I can’t wait to set up my apartment the way I want it, with more space to move and a home for the very few things I do have left. I feel pretty blessed the school gives me a place to stay, the most expensive thing about living in HK is rent and that is the one thing I don’t have to think about.

Will I be here forever? I doubt it. I know its for a season. But in the meantime I am going to make the most of it. A couple of my goals for this season is to learn to speak Cantonese more fluently, to get to know my family better and to get a deeper heart for the city and the people here. Its going to be a fun ride!

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Grateful.

Thursday, July 17th, 2008

The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of organising, packing and anticipation. Its flown by and so here I am. My last night in Perth. My last sleep in this beautiful laid back city. I can’t believe it.

I have been exceedingly blessed. I am so taken back by the love and generosity of my friends and church family. Its more than I could of imagined. I have been so honored and I feel so honored to know them as well; honored to have them be a significant part of my life. I will miss them dearly.

I’ve been reflecting on my time here in Australia and at Sunset Coast and all I can think of is the word, grateful. I am so grateful. Grateful that I have been able to be a part of something so much bigger than myself. To have been able to serve God along side some of the most fantastic people. People who have taken time to know me, sow into me, grow and challenge me. I would not be who I am today without some of these people who encouraged me throughout the years and have never given up on me, even when I, myself, doubted. It’s been one crazy adventure together.

And I can see God through it all. He’s been there all through this journey with me from day one. I can see the pathways, the nooks and cranny’s He has led me through and I have come through on the other side of this city, different. Changed and immensely impacted. Not even being able to recognise myself anymore.

God has been so faithfully good to me. I have seen the outworking of his love and faithfulness ever so much more evident in my life in the last 9 months. Its been an emotional journey, many nights praying, seeking wise council, hoping and believing. And despite the odds God pulled through for me in the only way that God knows how, through the unexpected. I have kept believing, being expectant, walking through the doors that have opened before me… and He has made my way straight. He has sold my car, blessed me through others and enabled me to pay off all my debt with money to spare. For the first time in 8 years, I am debt free. I am walking into my new life, released.

As I packed the last of my belongings tonight, it hit me. I am leaving everything I’ve ever known and loved to pursue what I believe to be where God wants me to be. To do what I believe is right. There is a sense of expectancy in the air. There is a sense of destiny.

I am going there with my heart, my eyes and my hands wide open.

I have no idea what the future will hold once I board that plane, but I do know that as I hold tightly to His hand, everything will be O.K.

My heart feels like its going to burst, I am in absolute awe.

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A Prayer.

Monday, June 16th, 2008

Dear Jesus, I love you.

I need you.

I come before you now, once again as yours, asking for your help, your grace. My life is yours.

My heart is yours.

Would you please shine your light into the depths of my heart that I might understand myself better and come to know your healing and your presence more deeply. Help me to remember what I need to remember. Help me to see, to understand, to repent, to forgive and to become.

Jesus, I give you access of all of my heart. I invite you into every part. Come, Holy Spirit, have your way – that I might love you, God, more deeply and truly with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength.

In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

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Changing places.

Friday, June 13th, 2008

I think a place can change you.

I think we can go places and we come back different. Something has changed. Maybe it is us or maybe it is them – whatever it is, something is different now.

The thing about growing up as a third culture kid (TCK), is that we’ve experienced too many cultures to ever just call one place home. I’ve lived in different cities across 3 different countries, I’ve been places, seen things and come back to find that either I have changed or the place I called home has changed. Things are never the same as we remembered it. Peoples lives move on. Time never stands still as much as we can sometimes want it to.

I have a friend who went to a third world country and he came back different. He saw pain, hunger, poverty and suffering with his own eyes. He saw small children die of AIDS. He went to try to do something. When he came back he was not the same anymore. I think it made him realise alot of things that he used to care about in sleepy suburbia seem all of a sudden small and insignificant. That there are more important things in life than finding a parking space in the parking lot. Or getting annoyed that the neighbors dog keeps pooping on your front lawn. We live a very comfortable life here in Perth.

Like I said, a place can change you.

I was talking to my friend as she drove me home tonight about her own experience of leaving the country and then coming back. We both agreed that we come back, after seeing different cultures and people, with different eyes. You come back wondering where or how you fit in this familiar, yet different home. Sometimes I still struggle with this. I wonder how I fit in. Or how people now relate to me and vice versa. Its just about different life experiences.

My best friend went to China and she came back different. She came back changed. It was good and it was part of the journey God had her on. The experience molded and shaped her into the beautiful person she is today. I wouldn’t change a thing about her.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Perth. I love my life, my friends, my church and everything else my life consists of. God’s given me so much and I am really blessed, sometimes more than I think I even realise. But I know that with me leaving this place, this country and culture, when I come back, life here won’t be how I left it.

I guess thats what also makes life exciting, God has us all on a journey. I sometimes get an itch to want to go out and do something. To dig my fingers in the dirt and grass stains on my knees, to experience something that will change me. I think life’s too short to not. I think with God we never really know how the journey will really pan out, but we know and trust that whatever it is, or wherever it is, with Him it will be Good.

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Enter in.

Thursday, June 12th, 2008

I can’t stop hearing this song off repeat, its beautiful:

I remember the time
When You came into my life
You saved me.
 
I am no longer the same
Forever I am changed
You paid for it all.
 
Help me to enter in to where the veil has been torn
Closer to where You are, as the angels adore.
Now its time to live the life
As a living sacrifice pleasing to you.
 
Go into the fields
to bring in Your harvest
To do Your Will
 
Holy is the Lord.

~ From Ashes to Beauty/ The Vine Band

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